Letting out the noise inside of me...

Myself and Ryan Key

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 17:01:22 GMT

Just a picture from last night.....

YC was amazing

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 16:59:01 GMT

went to see yellocard in Scranton, Pennsylvania last night. Sick show. Loved it. The Acceptance opened for them and they were good too. I fought my way to the front and got my ass kicked in the crowd but managed to stay about 2nd row to the stage the whole time. Afterwards i waited outside by the tour bus and got to meet them when they came out. I met the whole damn band and they autographed my shirt and ticket. Got some photos too. I drove all the way home from Scranton at 2AM, and now i'm ready to go to the Asbury Park show at 7PM this evening. Yeah I follow Yellowcard. Good Times.

i'm alive.

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 06:47:07 GMT

despite popular belief of me being dead because the last time i updated my journal the movie old school was new, i am alive. and well. possibly more to come.

cellular drama

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 13:39:48 GMT

ok so i got this cell phone from AT&T and i really didn't like it, and i've had AT&T for years and years, but they're service just started to give me problems. So now i returned my phone, and i thought my contract was up with them, but they told me by buying a new phone i extended it like 2 years or something. shove it up your ass. so now i have to call customer care and talk to a machine to try to fix things. I think i am going to switch to verizon, nobody has anything bad to say about them. I have to see if they have any cool phones too. how much fun is that. great.

yay

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 14:45:34 GMT

saw saves the day last night at starland ballroom...pretty good show. They played mostly songs from in reverie, i was hoping they would play some old stuff too though. Still a good time- Thursday is playing on April 12th...see u all there.

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 03:27:09 GMT

Here in this collapsed lung of a borough
There is no sunlight
The sunlight is manufactured in a windowless room
Distant and incoherent
Businessmen hang themselves

Work is busy. Running around like a maniac to get things done. The Directors were on vacation in aruba. insanity insues!

family dayyyyy

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 22:03:53 GMT

Went to Rutgers University last night to visit my friend joey. I haven't seen him in a while and it was pretty cool. We drank a bit and hung out with the people in his dorm. Went to a few frats on college ave. over there. Everyone is just out roaming the streets it was pretty cool. I stayed over and came back this morning.

went out and bought a digital camera today. a minolta, set me back a few dollars but now i finally got a new one. i can snap some photos after it is done charging. Sunday brunch today with the family and some friends. Went to the Hilton in Hasbrouck Heights cause they have a killer brunch buffet. Ran over to gina b's house to help her and dubs film a project. My friend j.b. is home from the hospital, he had surgery to remove a benign tumor from his brain stem, real scary stuff. I was really worried the day of his surgery last week but it went 100% okay. He is home and i am going to visit him in a few minutes.

TGIF

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 17:22:21 GMT

the weekend is here!! i was happy about that until i was at work this morning and they told me that not only do i have work tomorrow morning, but i have work tonight. Not a fan.

I was supposed to put money in the bank like i do every week, but i got angry for some reason and spent like 90% of it at the mall. lol. Got nice clothes though, some Burrrrrrrrberry stuff. picked up two of those shirts.

and some other stuff from A&F to wear around for kickS...

So yeah i got yelled at for not putting enough in the bank but i seriously needed clothes! Off to class now...

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 23:54:42 GMT

Happy Birthday To Me!!

Today was real crazy! I had a religion exam today at 1, so i stayed up late last night studying, and then set my alarm clock for 9:30 this morning so i can get up and study some more. I have off from work, thank god, so its all good. But waking up sucks. I got outta bed and studyed for a few hours, and then off to the rat at MSU to meet chrissy sorryboutchiz for lunch. She got me the most AWESOME gifts ever!! I didnt even expect anything -

ok it was definitely a bag of the best cookies i ever ate in my life. i destroyed them we shared a few. i was so happy. She also made me this kickass t-shirt with a pic of yellowcard on the front and a quote from the song "view from heaven" on the back. Way to start off the day right.

So i finished lunch, and went off to class. i walked in the room and it was empty! I thought i walked into the wrong room but i saw my professor and she told me the test was CANCELLED! i studied for a combined like 10 hours for this thing! BAHHHHH It was kinda good in a way but i was SOO ready to ace the test.

I kept getting text messages and IMs throughout the day saying happy bday, even jackie called me from her work and had one of her kids sing happy bday to me =]. Ok so as i'm writing this my doorbell just rang, and jessica, laura and maggie are at my door and they baked me cupcakes with happy birthday on them! this is getting to be insanity with all this food! Anyway after not having class i went to mount st dominic to pick up chiara, and then i went back to her house for a bit. Aldana came by too, shes awesome. My mom is making me dinner now - cause stepdads still at work. I don't know whats going on 2nite but it can't get any better than today- now after i eat i will sit, hoping dubs will call back tonight... ill write later

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 05:20:02 GMT

ok so i was up late studying and i felt like being distracted...

so i stole this survey from d1sturb3d thanksss =]

What does your name mean?
ryan joseph....umm...ryan is irish galiec or something and it means "little king"

How old are you? 19 today baby!!! Happy birthday to me 02/24

How old are you mentally (as in are you mature)? probably like 28 lol

Describe yourself in 5 words? lucky, nice, generous, and any others you'd like to add if u know me

What are your worst qualities? impatient,

What are your best qualities? people skills

How long does it take you get get ready in the morning? get ready? whats that

~SLEEP~

Do you dream at night? sure

Do you remember your dreams? not all...

Describe one? i think i was like being chased by the police or something in my last one..lol

What time do you go to bed usually? depends on what night, if i have work usually by 12 i guess...

What time do you wake up normally? i usually have work at 8

What time do you wake on weekends? i sleep innnnn

Do you find waking late nice or annoying? annoying cause i get overtired

do you sleep with one pillow or two? deuce definitely, i get upset if i only have one..

~SCHOOL~

Do you like school? negative, not a fan - unless im learning about something interesting.

Why/why not? most of the general requirements i take now are BORINGGGG
Whats ur fave subject? lunch

Most hated subject? anything to do with numbers

Do you have a fave teacher? anyone who doesnt teach calculus
Ever had a crush ona teacher? not MY teacher but A teacher...no names mentioned here!

Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? english drama all the way

~FRIENDS~

Do you have heaps of friends? i have different groups of friends...

Do you have a best friend? lucky enough to have a few..

Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? i have no idea...

Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? sure
Have you ever lied to a friend? i'd be lying it i said i didnt

Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? negative on that one...

~FAMILY~

Do you like your parents? my mom rocks, my step dad is a-ok i guess

Ever run away from home? sure - lol around the corner once.

Ever thought about it? see above

Do you have any siblings? negative

If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? ---

How old are they? - ---

If not, do you mind being an only child? lovin it -

Do you feel your parents spoil you? yes

Do you not get along with any of your family? sometimes w/my stepdad

Do you have big family get togethers ever? i dont have a big family

~RELATIONSHIPS~

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? negative

If so, are you in love with them? ---

Do they love you? ----

How long have you been together? ----

Most romantic thing they've ever done for you? ---NEXT!!!
Do you have a crush? uhh yeah

If so, are you in love? negative

Do they know you like them? probably

Is it serious or playful? i'll let you know

How long have you liked them? it's all brand new kiddo, recent stuff. You heard it here first.

Ever done something stupid to impress them? negative..well i dont think so?

Have you ever experienced unrequited love? yeah i think i have!

Do u find it romantic or hurtful? hurtful damnit

Even know what it is? uh huh

~SEX~

Ever had sex? yes sir
Believe that a person shouldn't have sex before marriage? negative

Believe in casual sex? indifferent..

When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? 2 years ago or so?

Did you regret it? i always say you should live life without regrets but i guess i'd take that one back...

~RELIGION~

Do you have a religion? prodestant

Do you practice it i.e go to church? not regularly

Do you believe in God? yes

Jesus? my religion is sketchy bout that

Satan? negative

Heaven? yep

Hell? negative

If you died tomorrow what do you beleive will happen to you?
i'll let you know if it happens

Does death scare you? negative...i work in the funeral business kiddo. death is a part of my life.

~MORALS~

Have you ever been drunk? yes sir

taken drugs? medication? sure.

stolen? lol yeah sure why not

shoplifted? yep

tried to commit suicide? negative on this one...

Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? yeah only because i was lied to

gotten into a fight? sure

are you more innocent or guilty? innocent

Would you date a drug addict? negative, not a fan

Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? negative

Are you racist? i have my moments, but overall, no.

Are you discriminatory to anyone? yes sir

Have you been a hypocrite in the past? i'm sure i've been at least once.

Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? closed mind lol

~MEDIA~

Do you watch tons of tv? negative

How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months?
a few but im going on wednesday =]

Do you listen to the radio often? only in the car

Do you read the newspaper? the obituaries section..lol

Do you read magazines? only car ones..once in a blue moon

Are you a couch potato? i am a computer potato

Do you use the internet too much? yes sir

~MUSIC~

Whats your fave style of music? i am usually open but i mostly listen to rock/emo...when im at a club its house or hip hop i guess
Do you play an instrument? negative i am the most musically challenged person you'll ever meet

Do you sing? my voice? negative

Whats your fave band? yellowcard definitely...

Why? because they're amazing thats why. no further questions.

Have you met them before? been to their concerts...i really should meet them though.

Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year. the two yellowcard cds (ocean avenue and one for the kids) and the starting line CD
Why did you buy them? ---- because i felt like supporting the damn bands instead of burning the cd

~SPORTS~

Whats your fave sport? ice hockey

Whats your fave sport to watch? ice hockey/soccer

Do you have a fave team of any sort? icehockey-rangers baseball - bluejays football - partiots basketball - pacers soccer - intermilan

Do you play a lot of sports? i used to

ever won anything for a sport? yes sir

~PERSONALITY~

Are you funny or serious? depends on the situation

Creative or not? not as much as i wanna be

Logical thinker or lateral thinker? logical all the way

Are you outgoing or shy? outgoing socially...
Are you lazy or active? trying to stay active

Have you ever been hyperactive? negative...can u say sugarrush!

Are you a naturally hyperactive person? who are you a doctor?

~LOOKS~

Are you happy with the way you look? sure..what am i gonna do ..complain?

What would you change? uhh nothing?

Do you wear makeup regularly? negative

Do you have a large wardrobe? negative - small rotation.

~MONEY~

Do you have a job? yes that i do

Do you like it? yes i do

Are you a saver or a spender? i save for what i want then i spend it. lol

Do you work hard or slack off? i work my ass off

Have you ever been fired? absolutely...well "let go" sounds nicer

In trouble at work? sure

Made a major mistake? negative

Ever had money stolen from you? im not sure

Are you always broke? never

~EMBARRASING MOMENTS~

Your all time most embarassing moment?   i cannot recall

Ever snorted drink out your nose? what the hell

Ever giggled like an idiot?    lol yeah so whats it to you?

Ever embarassed yourself and pretedned nothing happened?   hell yeah

Ever tripped in front of someone you liked? negative..what is this the movies?

Ever said something really stupid?    uhhhhhhh

Ever snorted while laughing? holy shit i just might have done that

Ever fallen off a bed?   yeah

Ever sleepwalked? i think i have?

Ever sleeptalked? why dont u ask someone who would know

~MEMORIES~

Whats your best memory? my last best memory is being at the yellowcard show FEB 6th with my friends =]

Worst? blah...

Whats the wierdest memory you have? i have no idea
Do you have a good memory? not too bad...
Whats the coolest holiday you remember having? thanksgiving baby.... i was in the bahamas eatin up a storm

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 00:04:20 GMT

lastnight...crazy. Up to the lakehouse for some late night fun. That's all i have to say about that.

Today, not too bad. I woke up around 11, which gave me a grand total of about zero hours of sleep and i went to the high school to see my friends in their cheerleading competition. Let me just say that they rocked - it was cool. Varsity got 3rd and JV got 1st. Putting off this paper even more, i ran out to starbucks real quick with jackie,gina and dubs. Good times with good people. love starbucks too..keeps me goin.

Ok so people apparently have this thing with naming their cars...like harry the honda and jetty the jetta. Umm well i have an Acura...what the hell do you name an acura anyway? hmm...time to finish my english paper...

i thought i'd include a picture of "ac" the acura...maybe you guys could think of names now..lol

.....

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 00:28:46 GMT

ok work has been busy....everyday...it's getting a little annoying. I have just about the easiest school schedule, its convenient and i really don't have to work a lot. All these general requirement classes are easy - which is good because i can't imagine working full time and going to school with hard course and stuff.

I was thinking about taking the civil service exam to become a cop, and my mom got kinda mad when i told her. Even though my father was a police officer, i dont think my mom was happy because she probably would be worried every day i worked. I guess we'll see.

I've been hanging out with new people lately...and it's good. Since all my close friends are away its hard to just blend in with someone else's crew, but everythings going ok. My digital camera broke, so theres no damn pics on my lj, but im getting a new one soon (my birthday is on tuesday!!!) and i will def post up some pics to give this thing some life.

Have you ever been disappointed in a friend because they didn't turn out how you thought they would? Like they chose a different path, a negative one in particular and you know they can do better but theres really nothing you can do about it? It really bothers me sometimes..

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 05:59:56 GMT

so things are starting to get better, the last few nights have been fun. Got my mind off Vday because my friends came home from college. I brought my friend jackie to the store to buy her bf a valentines day card, and then we got some coffee. I went by my friend rickys for a bit and got to see damon and bob. They purchased the largest amount of grass i've ever seen in my life. I was with nicole and her friend lauren from nutley and i had to bring them home, so bob drove because i couldnt. I had a really good time with nicole n stuff but she was hammered and she said she didnt remember all this stuff but whatever. You can never really tell how a person feels when they're wasted. lol. It was good to see everyone again, but they're all gone now, back to school. The high school has off this week so i'll get to see some people.

Today i just ran some errands and went to bloomfield ave cafe to see my friends band "infamous plague" play with nicole. They are really good actually for a rock/metal band. My friend rich that plays the guitar is seriously sick, hes really talented. After went to pick up jackie to go get some food. Later people called jackie to meet at the soda pop shop in montclair, so we went and met up with J.P. and jenna there. Jen nelson works there too i think she is gorgeous - she made me this huge sunday that i ate and i feel so HUGE. After that we all piled into my car and went searching for huge houses cause we were bored. We went into cedar grove and looked at these mansions that were like millions of dollars and wished we owned them. I dropped off j.p. and jenna and jackie and decided to call it a night cause tomorrows another day and NO WORK! i get to sleep in!!! =]

vday sucks

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 23:49:36 GMT

happy valentines day =[

it's just another day.

i'm surrounded by people holding hands.

it's just another day.

i'm surrounded by pink and red hearts everywhere.

it's just another day.

i'm surrounded by roses overflowing from every vase.

it's just another day.

i'm surrounded by LOVE and i don't have ANY of it.

it's just another day......

another night...

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 06:14:35 GMT

tonight was pretty cool, nicole_x0 and mandy stopped by for a few secs to say whats up. I was just really bored sitting at home waiting for my friend joey to come home from rutgers university. after they left i went over to my friend gina's to rescue her from her house of bordem. I met up with joey and we hung out at my friend j.b.'s house for a bit. His mom made us popcorn and gave us all this unnecessary chocolate.

Work called, now i have to go in tomorrow night from 6:30-9:30, ugh, way to ruin a friday night. But whatever i usually don't go out till after that anyway. At least i get to sleep in tomorrow, i don't have class till 1:00. I'm going to bed now cause i'm beat -

so last friday...

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 04:38:18 GMT

What An Amazing Show!!

i went to see yellowcard play at starland ballroom in sayerville, nj. It was seriously an amazing show. Three bands opened up for them, bleed the dream, the format, and don't look down. I wasn't into the format that much, but the other two bands were seriously really good. Yellowcard ROCKED the house, it was packed. I had fought my way to the front in the middle while don't look down was playing cause i wanted to stay up there for yellowcard, but as soon as YC came on the whole crowd became a pit and everyone was getting destroyed. They started off by playing 'empty apartment' and then played 'twenty-three' and 'breathing'. It was a really good set list they even played a song off their old CD.

Let me just say crowd surfing ROCKS - it was pretty serious. They are playing again on March 15th with Something Corporate in Pennsylvania, i'm there already. Anyone who hasn't seen YC should GO!!!! They are amazing live -

yeah...

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 20:05:35 GMT

ok so for all of you who ever cared i am actually alive....got caught up in other things and all that. Since i'm like returning and stuff i figured i had better mess around with the layout, i threw up some new shit just for kicks. It'll be finished whenever i get bored again. Anyway i'm welcoming myself back just in time for valentines day. You'll be sure to hear me complain in a lil bit...for now i gotta run...

a quick update,,,

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 09:38:02 GMT

coming to you straight from las vegas, nevada!! The weather out here is crazy....70 degrees and sunny...i called my mom and she told me we had snow back home! I'm sorry guys but i'm really glad i'm out here now! Shorts and a t-shirt is the current style...and nothing more. The flight was long, and i sat next to these people from England which was cool.

As for winternationals hockey, my team is doing insanely well, (i'm the first one on the left). I had 7 games today, because i'm playing in two different divisions here. It's crazy, we are undefeated so far, and we're going to the finals on saturday. I'm so psyched cause last year we placed 5th and this is gonna be our year to win.

Las Vegas is everything i imagined it to be and more so far, the strip is amazing with all the lights, and casinos and limos and showsssss its craziness!! I wish i was 21...errr...maybe not cause i would lose all my money. But yeah i gotta goto bed i got games later....be home sunday !!

yesssss!

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 19:44:00 GMT

ok so i was sitting here and i completely forgot that yellowcard was playing in sayerville in february, so i just quickly went and ordered tickets and now i'm just so amped to go. i missed their last show at birch hill back in november i think because i was at the ataris concert, but nowww February sixthhh =] Now i'm in a good mood...can't wait to see them.

leavin on a jet plane...

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 16:56:37 GMT

yeah so it's been a while, i've been running around busy working and trying to hang out with all my friends before they go back to school. Well needless to say they all are pretty much gone now, and i'm leaving for las vegas in about 6 hours. I have to head out there to play hockey with my travel team, which is pretty cool because i've never been to vegas before. It's really fun playing for the team because we've been all over, and we'll find out where nationals in the summertime will be this weekend. I'll snap some pics..yeah..

My computer crashed for some reason....i don't know maybe it was just old. It was slow too...so i went to the store to buy a new one and i got it today. I'm on my parents computer now though i didn't set mine up yet. I have to take my old one apart and rip the hard drive out so i don't lose any of my files :( Pain in the ass.

So the other night alli came by, i hadn't seen her in a while, i was pretty happy bout that. People have been calling me and IM'ing me asking where i have been and whats wrong with me, but i don't know what they are taking about? Am i really acting different? Someone told me the other day that i've changed..its weird. I think everything around me changed and i stayed the same... =/ I'll be back monday...

An update? Who woulda thought...

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 20:30:59 GMT

i know its been forever since i updated but new years was pretty crazy and i think i just recovered fully. Yeah the night started off good we just went by my friend anthonys and pre gamed it up a bit, then to Amy's where watched the ball drop. From there we went to someones house in verona that my friend mike knew, and finally ended up at Tick Tock Diner around 4am but we got kicked out cause my friend John got into a fight there...long story. So we went to Six Brothers Diner instead and finally got to eat. No i didn't hook up with anyone when the ball dropped, just put back a shot.

Everyones starting to get ready to go back to college now, so i've just been out late every night hanging out with my friends and planning vacations for the summer. I leave for las vegas in about a week or so, to go play hockey for my traveling team. I always love goin away with them.

happy new years...

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 22:39:59 GMT

just gettin ready to go out for new years....definitely gonna be a good night -

Happy new year to everyone and be safe...don't be stupid.

Sun, 28 Dec 2003 17:24:04 GMT

Auto response from kimi star xo [12:07 PM]: RYaN is a SHitfACed lOSER!!

SpaRkLinAnGL14 [12:08 PM]: a little gone last night?

Well apparently i had a good night last night..moving on...

Miko and alli (infinity_road ) are both in florida now, and miko called me a few times. I'm not sure what is going on between them down there but i don't think things are going well.

If you're ever out at night, know that the men in black mean business...

Bring on the new year so i can start all over....

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 17:11:59 GMT

i woke up a few times this morning and looked at the clock but just didn't want to get up..and my mother in all her cheerful glory came in about three times reminding me that "santa came." Yeah, so i rolled out of bed and went downstairs to my extremely large family of three (3), including myself. My step-dad was thrilled about his new little palm pilot i got him (which i will end up teaching him how to use) and my mom loved her earrings. I ended up getting a few things i expected, some clothes, the hess truck for tradition's sake .

I got surprised though cause my mom bought me a new watch....i didn't ask for it but it's really nice and i've always liked movado's simple style.

For the most part i just got money, which i will need to buy my new cell phone because i throw mine when i get mad at it...and it's almost dead. So yeah, i hope everyone else got everything they wanted.

Bring on the new year so i can start all over again...

just dug up some pics from this weekend...

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 05:09:49 GMT

Merry Christmas....

from ricky's house this weekend...just a few pics...

me and matt

ricky and donna at the table

the table

random of anthony,ricky,me

yeah...crazy night pretty much...